After being laid-off from my job in January 2009, my young children and I have "relocated" 3 times while I looked for work, moving from relative to relative. We went from a typical middle-class American existence - I was a hardworking, well-educated executive with a long stable career, a beautiful home, excellent credit, great schools, beloved pets, with wonderful friends and neighbors, and earning well over $100k a year (and even had a million dollar life insurance policy!)
I am now broke, my savings almost completely depleted and I now share a tiny spare room with my 2 kids. I am on the cusp of being a complete financial burden to my relatives ... and I wake up in the middle of the night, every night, in a cold sweat, so ashamed that I wasn't able to prevent this from happening and terrifed at the prospect of the inevitable poverty and hardships my kids are about to face.
Posted by Anonymous who is out of options on Nov 19, 2010 at 5:15 PM
this giant black guy cornered me the other day and told me i wasnt shit. he said i would never amount to anything. he rreached into my back pocket and took my wallet. he kept smacking my girlfriends ass and grabbing her chest, telling her she should leave with a "real man". he smacked me across the face and told me to watch my back.then he sauntered off. two days later, im going to surprise my girlfriend at work on her lunch break, and as i pull up, i see her getting into a car. so i follow it to a nearby park. who gets out the drivers seat? none other than that giant black guy. i watch from across the street as the hold hands and kiss and spend the next 20 minutes looking like some love birds in the park. Im so depresseed
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Mar 2, 2012 at 7:12 PM
Job sucks. Everything is breaking. Can't buy the house I want. Fuck.
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on May 24, 2010 at 7:55 PM
relationships, friendship can fuck me, thats the shit
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Nov 3, 2010 at 5:10 PM
I am unmotivated because I apply everywhere for a job and everytime I do I am told I am unqualified and when I leave I see other applicated with raggy clothes and etc and you know they don't have a college degree and I do, but I am unqualified.
Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on May 2, 2012 at 5:55 PM
I absolutely hate my job right now and I feel depressed. I just celebrated my one year anniversary at my job, and I pray that I will win the lottery - or at least get a notice in the mail for jury duty so that I don't have to go to work.
I am currently looking for a new position; however, I have a mortgage so I can't quit until I find a job with an equivalent salary. I could give you a whole list of why I don't like my job: such as inconsistent management policies, low morale, having to work constant overtime just to keep up with everything (I'm on salary so I'm not getting paid for this extra time), uninformed upper management. If however, I am really depressed and that is WHY I hate my job, then once I find a new job I'm still going to feel just as tired, uninterested, unmotivated as I feel now.
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Jan 12, 2010 at 11:49 AM
Everything blew-up 5 years ago. My wife found a charge to a massage parlor. (I justified that I was paying for something my wife use to enjoy but refused to do anymore)
I love my wife and want to stay together. We were in therapy for two year. I have managed to keep it in my pants for the last 5 years. But i am so close to saying fuck it. she wont talk about how it bothers her. She makes promises and doesn't follow through.
But when it comes right down to it, I was in the wrong... I am trying to be the best husband I can, but I don't know how much longer I can take it.
Posted by Anonymous who is out of options on Apr 11, 2010 at 3:34 PM
Why are you unmotivated?
Wish I new.
Just wake up thinking it will be a better day and as soon as it is time to do the work I need to do . . . POW . . . I feel like shit and don't want to do anything.
Tomorrow will be a better day I say, but same shit.
Kinda like a sign I saw in a bar once, FREE BEER TOMORROW!
But everyday is free beer tomorrow.
Anyway, now it is 3pm and to late to start, to early to finish, so now I sit here doing nothing again.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT!
Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on Jun 1, 2010 at 3:06 PM
Why are you depressed? My wife is constantly cheating on me, I just don't know what to do anymore. I told her the last time she did it, that if it happened again, I would be gone. Well guess what... It happened again, and she just acted like she didn't even care, until she was sober, then it's "I'm sorry babe, I didn't mean to", or some kind of excuse like that. But it would be hard for me to leave her, because I love her with everything I have, and also we have a baby together.
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Aug 30, 2010 at 5:27 PM
Why are you depressed?
Some people have it a lot harder then others. If you have a job,
Your way above people that don't, For myself, I call temp agency every day to try and get work, I do understand the stress and the pressure, I got laid off from a good high paying job, had to sell most of what I own, for you out there that have been looking for work you know what Im talking about. Theres days I don't know what in the world am I going to do, But Ive to look at depression is trying to take over, And I want to take over it.
some days I keep thinking to myself I need a punching bag, to beat the hell out of it. for the ones that are struggleing, please don't give up. some how some way. i believe it will get better,
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Jan 24, 2011 at 3:15 AM
As a 2012 graduate, with lots of students loans, I hate my job where I work 60-70 hours a week, and I live in a new city far away from my real friends and family.
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on May 20, 2013 at 9:43 PM
Why are you depressed?
I´m having the best friends in the whole world but i´m feeling not good enough for them cause they are so much better than me...
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on May 11, 2013 at 1:13 PM
Why are you unmotivated?
People keep stressing me and I feel like committing suicide because of how unproductive I am.
Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on Apr 23, 2013 at 9:40 AM
So Im a musician. Singer,songwriter,producer, photographer, graphic designer, studio engineer and video editor. A one man show if you wish.
I made really good songs and moved to a big city in order to develop the whole thing and try to realize my vision.
People start to like my stuff, get musicians, fire them for being lazy, get more musicians, then fire them for being lazy too, decide to go solo and get 3 investors to finance a million dls for the national promo campaign and biz positioning, people extortion me for that money (which I never had in my hands) and since I cant give it to them they steal all my shit such as instruments, equipment, tv, credit cards, hard drives with all my music tracks, set my apt on fire and threaten to kill me if i show my face again. Oh and they raped me and beat me up as well.
This happened a month after my niece of 14 shot herself in the head, which happened 3 months after my best friend got robbed and murdered.
I told everyone close to me about the extortion incident to alert them and hopefully avoid them from being surprised by these assholes... and in return I get ignored by everyone, be taken as a madman and as a joke, everybody decides to hate me.
Lost all money, all stuff, all connections and even now have to re-record the music.
This is all because of money. I fucking hate money. Theres a black hole in the center of our galaxy pulling us closer every day and all we can think of is money money money. I just want to make my art. Why must I be some kind of social skills jedi, Im a polite and hard working person. Wtf is wrong with the world??
Posted by htzl who is out of options on Mar 22, 2013 at 2:54 AM
Why are you depressed?
My mom died
Posted by Anonymous who is depressed on Feb 1, 2013 at 11:02 PM
Why are you unmotivated?
Because in reality I can draw pretty well, but today I tried (again) drawing with a drawing tablet and the result looked like shit, the lines are shaky and everything looks so fucking fucked up. Also, the controls got unresponsive and the Select tool is frustrating: I tried to cancel the Magic Wand tool so that I could put in a one-millimeter-long pen stroke to prevent the Wand from choosing an area inside of my lineart drawing, but ended up whacking the tablet with the pen because the select area -thing just kept coming back. In the end I quit and now it feels like everything I accomplished in the past goddamn 3 hours just made the drawing worse. Also, I have a flu.
Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on Jan 28, 2013 at 2:01 PM
Why are you out of options?
I have found myself living in a shotgun shack. I have found myself in another part of the world. I have said to myself, "my god, what have I done." Thank you to David Byrne for summarizing my life...and predicting it.
Posted by Anonymous who is out of options on Oct 19, 2012 at 1:33 AM
About to start college. Going to Duquesne for an undecided major. Held a 3.5 GPA all through high school. Now I have to start over. Fuck me.
Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on Jun 5, 2012 at 9:30 PM
Why are you unmotivated? My dick is small no one likes me and I am fat and can't do anything
Posted by Anonymous who is unmotivated on May 13, 2012 at 2:52 PM